I thought of you with love today
But that’s nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too
I think of you in silence
I often speak your name
All I have is memories
And your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake
With which I’ll never part
God has you in his keeping
I have you in my heart
Charlotte VW Greer
11.6.13
When in doubt
Make a list
Don’t suffer or pout
Do it quick!
Put down your wants
Put down your needs
When life does daunt
Make it easy to read.
Organize your middle
Haunted out in black and white
Don’t retreat to a corner to huddle
There are dragons to smite!
List of concerns
Note your displeasure
When everything around you burns
Write down what you treasure.
10.2.13
I live my life on the cusp
A lingering precipice
Beating back all I trust
Silently waiting for trespass
Whether it's wax or waned
the sky is empty of moon
look what the night has claimed night birds sing there empty tune
I was supposed to rise above
but I sink into the ocean
waiting for one more shove lingering with the notion
empty house
empty room
the voices in my head
doubting Thomases makes me swoon
every cusp has its edge
razor sharp an achingly dull
so I wait on this ledge
fear of unknown crashing in my skull
Nights like these
it’s nights like these
when I don’t know what to think when she doesn’t hear my pleas and she’s on the brink
It’s nights like these
when beast is bigger than cage
Or a hinge needing grease
or watching a performer tragically drunk on stage
it’s nights like these
when I begin to doubt my choices
setting in a singular feeling of unease
and thoughts ring true from outside voices
Nights like these
when I want to close up shop readdress my own needs
and declare my life choices a flop
It’s nights like these
When I’m scared and have had all I can take
and my heart only knows seize
because our roots won’t take
so on nights like these
I question what I’m doing
in these stormy seas
and just whom do I think I’m fooling?
Because on nights like these
I think twice about whom I’m trying to please
acutely aware there is no easy treatise
as I Ponder catch and release
12.1.2015
No one seems to notice the stars
As they fall into the ocean
They don’t notice all my scars
As long as I stay in perpetual motion
I wonder if God sees
Me trying to fight the good fight
Does anyone hear my mournful pleas?
Swallowed by the dark and out of sight
So all the cars rumble by
And are gone again into the night
Right past the girl who doesn’t cry
The girl losing the good fight
7.16.15
When you open your favorite book
But the pages won’t turn
You are hidden in your favorite nook
But your heart just burns
When time creeps
You want to be alone
And cannot speak
But you won’t let go of the phone
When you’ve tamped it all down
And cannot cry
Cannot release the feelings so profound
No matter how hard you try
You dig for distraction
cannot seem to confide
So you pack up your burden
And die a little inside