Never Be Mine II

Never Be Mine

 

I look at you and see

My life that might have been

I recall the owl claiming the big tree

He will forever be a reminder of you and me

 

Something to be admired from afar

A thing to claim as mine

But the sheen on you and I we cannot mar

For it will be suspended for all time.

 

Maybe I want you as a dream

Not the reality

But everything is not what it seems

And the motions we go through are a mere formality

 

Now I am looking back over my shoulder

At you finding happiness without me

One year older, one year bolder

The pieces of our love scattered like debris

 

This is where a long to be

This is what I need

Is this where I want to be?

Is this what I need?

Regardless of my wants, I must set you free

I know this will never be mine

 

I am left with the promises I made

I feel the shame of not making them real

I left you feeling betrayed

I feel the added pain of a need to conceal

 

We must act as if all is fine

We must distance ourselves from the lifeline

I must strike fish heads from my mind

And know this will never be mine

 

~Charlotte  3.27.09