Nights Like These

Nights like these
it’s nights like these
when I don’t know what to think when she doesn’t hear my pleas and she’s on the brink
It’s nights like these
when beast is bigger than cage
Or a hinge needing grease
or watching a performer tragically drunk on stage
it’s nights like these
when I begin to doubt my choices
setting in a singular feeling of unease
and thoughts ring true from outside voices
Nights like these
when I want to close up shop readdress my own needs
and declare my life choices a flop
It’s nights like these
When I’m scared and have had all I can take
and my heart only knows seize
because our roots won’t take
so on nights like these
I question what I’m doing
in these stormy seas
and just whom do I think I’m fooling?
Because on nights like these
I think twice about whom I’m trying to please
acutely aware there is no easy treatise
as I Ponder catch and release
12.1.2015